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I haven’t weighed myself since the start of the month and then I still weighed the same as when I first registered here. I’ve been trying since the start of this month to eat more regularly and eat better food and do some exercise.

My new job is very physically demanding for me. Other people who are fit and healthy would look at it and go “pah!” but for  me, it is the most physically demanding job I’ve had in about 3 years. It keeps me moving a lot during my shifts. I’ve been managing to eat somewhat better, more regular meals and I have been walking a bit. I haven’t been over exerting myself to any extent though.

This week I have been ill, I have had a stomach bug and felt very ill. I haven’t felt like eating and when I have eaten, I have had awful stomach ache and indigestion and been sick. It’s getting better today though and I managed yesterday to eat some omlette and soup.

I weighed myself this morning and I have lost 7lbs this month!!!!!!!!! I know that some of that will be due to being ill and I shouldn’t be happy about that bit cos it may go back on once I am well again but I am very very happy to have lost weight!

It has really motivated me to carry on eating better and doing some exercise. I am thinking of joining a martial arts class but it depends what night it is on because I don’t know what evening shifts I will be on at work.

I’m going out now for a short walk and to the pharamacy to get something for my stomach. It’s very cold at the moment so I have to wrap up warm!

The last few days have changed everything completely. My boss at my second job said that if I wanted, I could take it on full time. I agreed. I’m so so excited, it has many plus points attached to it.

It is near where I live so I can walk to and from work and I won’t have to spend the money I currently do on using my car. It won’t be 7 days a week all day so I will have free time to go swimming and walking and see my friends. I won’t have to get up at 5.30am!! The main point that is encouraging me is that there is lots of opportunity for me there, to move up in the company. It may not be what anyone I know thinks is the perfect job, least not for me. But I am as surprised as anyone to find how much I actually really LOVE my job. And how often do you hear people saying that??

In recent months I’ve realised it doesn’t matter what I do in life, as long as I am happy doing it, I don’t need to work long hours in a stressful job just to justify my qualifications. I am happy doing this right now and it will give me the chance I need to slow down and start taking my health seriously and helping myself lose weight and get healthy and feel great.

It will also give me the chance to do some further studying and hobbies.

Winter is really starting to take hold here now. It’s cold, wet and windy. The 5.30am starts are proving more difficult every day and I’m battling against the affects of SAD. I’ve taken on a second job which I have to say I am really, really enjoying. It’s something I never thought I would like doing. I just really don’t like my first job. I’ve booked 4 days off next week to just relax and do nothing. This is the worst time of year for me mentally. I have been really struggling this week, just trying to make it though to Friday but I’m afraid today it got the better of me and I’ve taken the day off sick and spent the whole morning sleeping.

 I don’t feel bad about it because I really don’t feel well at all, I need to get some rest to be able to carry on for the next few days.

Today I’m looking online for a new first job, something I will enjoy doing, that will keep me occupied and mean I don’t have to get up at 5.30am!

I haven’t weighed myself for a week or more. I don’t think I’ve lost any weight, I haven’t been trying really. Next week when I’m off, I will be able to eat breakfast and have proper meals so I will try my hardest then weigh myself at the end of next week.

I can’t believe it’s been 4 months since I joined and only now am I actually getting my ass in gear and looking at this. Think how much weight I could have lost in 4 months…at least 16lbs…instead I have probably gained a bit more.

 I am really trying to be positive at the moment and look forward and look to what I can get involved in and do rather than what I could or should have done.

 The weather is getting darker and damp, wet, cold and generally miserable. Such a struggle for me to be motivated to do exercise. I still haven’t got any form of exercise in my daily life.

I can’t blame shift work because there’s plenty of time around my shift work that I could be out walking or go swimming. I keep making excuses…I can’t go out walking cos I need some suitable clothing and shoes…I can’t go swimming because there will be loads of kids there at this time of day jumping in and out of the pool…..so yeah, it never manages to happen.

I prefer to go swimming in the morning when there aren’t many people about, I really have to psych myself up to go because I know other people will be there looking at the state of me in my swimming costume.

I don’t start work til later tomorrow so I’m am going right now to shave my legs, paint my toe nails and pack my swimming stuff so I can go in the morning.

Well, this is my first blog.

I’m here because 2 years ago I embarked on an extreme weight loss programme and succesfully lost 33lbs in a very short space of time. I had hardly enough time to enjoy being thinner when I let my life take over and for the past year the weight has crept back on. I am now more than twice the weight I lost.

 It’s time to do something about it. Members of my family are supportive but they also are very harsh with it, no matter what I do, I’m told I could be doing something better. It’s very off putting.

I need to get myself doing some exercise, getting out and about in the fresh air and walking or doing some form of exercise.

Recently, my diet has been a lot better. I don’t add sugar or salt to my food, I don’t eat a lot of carbs, I try to eat as healthy as possible. I think my downfall is definitely Starbucks and chocolate! Two things I will have to work on.

Eating 5 portions of fruit and veg, drinking 2 litres of water and eating fish are easy for me, my problem is with sugary foods and lack of exercise. Once these are under control and I begin to lose weight and become fitter I will hopefully have less health problems and increase my self-confidence.